TGITHURSDAY

As I've mentioned I don't have classes on Friday so Thursday is my Friday :) I don't mind Thursdays at all, i really enjoy all of my classes (retailing,macroecon and art history) i suppose I really like all of my classes this semester but, Thursdays seem to fly bY! After class today I am going to New Hampshire. My sister is going into the hospital today so I am going home to tend to her for the weekend as my parents are still in Florida right now and can't be here. Of course I am happy to do it and I know that she would do the same for me. Let's see how my first run at being "the mom" goes, ekkk...mom- how do you do it! My mom is ALWAYS there for all of her kids, she is so amazing. Homemade soups when we're sick (and when we're not), jello when the wisdom teeth come out, backrubs just because and her words of advice that we can all use and of course so many more wonderful beautiful things that my mom does for us.
TOday I am wearing a teal/greenish sweater that I picked from the boys section at a thrift store here in Rhode island that I paired with a white shirt underneath. Over it I am wearing a "100% cashmere" scarf, however, i got it on the streets of NYC so I am unsure how legit that is, haha. I'm always wearing the Owl necklace that Ash got me for my birthday! On the bottom I am wearing a pair of ripped jeans with a pair of blue leggings on underneath them because I am unsure how the bare leg through the rips would go over [both from forever 21]. For shoes I am wearing a pair of colorful Nike sneakers that I love for their comfort and for the look! I am also wearing a hat from H&M that is great because its wicked loose and comfortable! Good outfit to wear to class because its comfortable but still incorporates a lot of color that is SERIOUSLY lacking in peoples wardrobes during these winter months.
OHIO by crosby stills nash and young has been on repeat on my itunes all morning- such a classic.

Music in the Background

*One of my favorite albums of all time!*


*Probably never get sick of Citizen, ever*


I truly am still waiting for the day that music plays in the background of life. How amazing and more enjoyable (even though life is already quite nice) would life be if music played in the background 24/7. Perhaps we would need our quiet moments which of course would be possible but considering i listen to music and sing music inside of my head all day why not have it just play outloud. its possible that if music played in the background of our everyday lives that people might be more pleasant and more apt to forgive and to accept people for who they are- maybe more willing to just let life flow by with less judgment and less animosity. People will realize all the beauty around us that is complimented by music. Who knows, but I will hope that that day comes! I'm not trying to sound flower power-esque, but come on, music in the background of our lives?? awesome.

Buffalos Searching For More To Life

*Roaming about on Longmarsh in Durham, NH*


*Long V-neck black sweater:express. Purple dress:Lux. Leggings:american eagle. Boots:Urban Outfitters.glasses:vogue*
It was really rainy and gross out today and i woke up late- well not late but later than usual so i was running around all over the place in order to make it in time for class today. I am trying to have perfect attendance this semester, we'll see if this works out. Anyway, I sort of threw this outfit on in order to run out the door but it ended up working out pretty well. I also didn't have time to put my contacts in so I am wearing my glasses which I rarely ever wear. The neckline of the black sweater is pretty low so I tucked my white and pink scarf inside, acting sort of shirt-like.

I talked to my brother Jamie on the phone for a while tonight and i began realizing more and more how similar are thoughts are (although I suppose I've known for a while now, but its always reinforced). We definitely agree on a lot of things and share similar beliefs.It's nice having someone so easy to talk to and so easy to be around. We get along so well and I really value our relationship. Speaking of him, he had a great encounter with a buffalo yesterday. We live right next a buffalo farm in NH (can't sound more country than that) and one of the buffalo got lose from the fenced in area. My brother was driving home and stopped on the side of the road as other people were stopped trying to get the buffalo back to the other side of the fence. Jamie mentioned how although we might all think we know how big buffalo are, seeing one 20 feet away from you is a whole different story as the buffalos chest was at eye level to jamie's SUV window, not to mention how big it's head is! So the buffalo was charging around, bucking here and there, seemed confused, circling around, doing what all great buffalo do. At one point the buffalo got about 10 feet away from jamie's rolled down front window at which point jamie was able to snap this photo above with his iphone although he says it doesn't do its size or presence any justice and wishes he could have snapped an awesome high def photo with his good camera! or perhaps a picture of him jumping onto the buffalo with a great big smile before getting bucked off. :) The, what seemed like, trained buffalo farmer that had been dodging the buffalo every time it charged him by hiding behind trees, etc. finally was able to get the buffalo back with his other buffalo friends that were urging for him to come back and everyone lived happily ever after. Jamie said it's just like the movie the truman show, that buffalo knew there was more out there beyond his fenced in confinements. hahah- hilarious.

Wearable Art

This is a piece of work done by Dina Knapp . The art to wear movement began in the 1960's and has been flourishing ever since. I think its absolutely fabulous that artists and fashion designers can mesh into one in works considered 'wearable art' Can you imagine the patience and difficulty involved in creating a piece of work such as this. Dina Knapp, an innovator in the wearable art movement, began after she spent a day crocheting 20 hats and realized that she could do something with this newfound talent. This blossomed into a deep passion that produced pieces that were executed by crocheting, stuffing, stitching, knitting and other creative techniques. There are many other artists/designers that floated in the middle and broke the boundary between art and fashion. It became possible for handcrafted garments to be considered unique pieces of art. How Fabulous! Julie Schafler has a gallery located in New York City that exhibits pieces of wearable art that is still open to this day. I encourage you to take a look! It's very inspiring. Also check out Tim Harding

Monday Funday

*rose scarf- thrift store, RI. White golfer pullover- Thrift store, Nantucket. Grey skinny pants-Forever 21*
I don't mind Monday's for one and only reason and that is because I have my photography class on Monday. We developed some more prints today and I swear I could have stayed in there for the rest of the day. Three hours is not enough. I finished the assignment and stayed to print more and found myself to be the last one in the darkroom, everyone had left. It is hard to describe how amazing and rewarding it is to develop your own film. One would think that you don't have a lot of creative leway but with filters, time, light, etc. you really do! My mom used to have a darkroom in our old house in peterborough, NH- which makes me realize its a definite possibility to have my own in my house one day.
Unfortunately I lost a whole section of my Computer Aided Design project that I completed last week and have to re do it all- so discouraging. i sent my finished product to my e-mail and i am unsure what happened but it the attachment never sent! So back to the drawing board. What can you do.
I am really thankful to have such amazing friends. Sometimes in life we go through things that make you stop and rethink what you've always deemed the truth. you always thought that even though you might grow apart from someone it doesn't mean you can't pick up where you left off. I've always had an understanding with most of my friends that although we might not talk all of the time and although we may not see eachother a lot, we know that we are always there for eachother and we know that there will be a time in life where we will come together and everything will pick up where it left off. I want to grow old with my friends and keep them forever. I've had an emotionally grueling past few days and the more that I contemplate and the more that I think, the more things don't make sense. so I am vowing to just stop thinking about things that I cannot change. As i've always known, my family is always there for me and friends come from all over for comfort. I appreciate the people in my life that know how important their friendship/relationship is to me and how much I value it. It's difficult losing one of your greatest friendships- unexplainable actually- you're left wondering how much could I have meant if I am that expendable to them? A simple sentence proclaiming how effortlessly they've forgotten about you is a time consuming process to digest how someone that you love so much and had such a deep friendship with could dismiss it. it's heartbreaking. no follow up or explanation, just a brief harsh goodbye, one that you would maybe give to someone who you barely knew or maybe to somebody that did something terrible to you. Not to someone you shared the best moments of your adult life with, that deserves more.

Trombone Shorty

I just got back to Rhode Island a lit bit ago- I spent most of the drive back reflecting on the amazing weekend that I had! Ashley, being the amazing generous friend that she is, got me a ticket to a concert in NYC for my birthday (as well as the cutest owl necklace and an awesome mix cd!!) SO- On friday I drove to Poughkeepsie and me Ashley and her roommate Annie all took the train into New York City. We met Steph at the Empire State Building where she works and we all took the T into Brooklyn where Steph lives. We all got ready for the night and headed back on in to the city where we made our way to the Highline Ballroom where we were going to see the Ryan Montbleau Band open for Trombone Shorty. The truth is, we were going to see the Ryan Montbleau band but it just so happens that Trombone Shorty far exceeded our expectations. The concert was OUT OF THIS WORLD! The crowd was prettty weak in the beggining, but that did not stop us from dancing and singing to all of the songs. As the show went on, the crowd got more into it and by that time we were dancing our pants off. Ryan Montbleau played some awesome songs and they are really great performers. Trombone shorty is a band made up of instruments including the trombone (obvi), saxaphone, keyboard and an assortment of drums. They really know how to entertain a crowd. not only was the music fabulous but they just had an energy that is hard to describe. and their dance moves were simply amazing, probabaly because they were minimal but it was hilarious to see their synchronized feet movements. At one point in the concert they walked off the stage down into the crowd and single file played their way through the crowd, it was AH-MAZZZING. Check our their tour dates and if they are playing around you i HIGHLY recommend attending! Above are a a few pictures of the girls, ryan montbleau and a cut off pic of trombone shorty. So anyway, after the concert we mingled about a little bit and ended up going to a bar to grab some drinks. After that we met up with one of the members from trombone shorty at a bar called the brass monkey and got some drinks there. Once 4 am hit and the bars started closing we took a cab back to Stephs in Brooklyn and hit the sack. The next day we roamed around brooklyn and hit up some awesome thrift shops. unfortunately my budget did not allow me to purchase any of the amazing items i spotted but it was fun to look. Brooklyn is awesome, i never expected it to be like that. I ruled out new york city after hating it so much when I went to FIT but Brooklyn is such a managable place to live- its very cool! Later that day we headed back into the city and went to Loehmans, an off price retailer that has some great clothing. again, unfortunately i could not buy anything but I know that I really want to go back and shop around there, 4 floors of amazingness. We also met up with our highschool friend Jack which was great. He's a hilarious human being and it is really fun to be around him! :)
Finally we left the city and headed back to poughkeepsie, got food, watched the movie I love you Beth Cooper and went to bed. Very relaxed night which was nice after such a crazy night prior to. All and all and excellent weekend! A weekend full of excitement and fun and thing to do to get my mind off of less fun and exciting things that might perhaps have occupied some space in my mind.

sin city esque-speaking of cities....

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This black hooded wrap is to die for! I have sort of been on the hunt for a comfortable wrap that goes with a lot of outfits and the hood was in the back of my memory but I didn't think that I could have it all in one item- but it happened! This is from Forever 21 and I am obsessed with it. it wraps one side over the other and has a black tie for an enclosure. Undearneath I am wearing a green longsleeve waffle shirt with flowers imprinted on it. I love the green underneath the black (although it doesnt really look green), it makes it must less goth. Although, the style of this photo is a bit goth mixed with retro, haha. very interesting combo. Another great photo by JAMIE. I am wearing a pair of jeans from forever 21. This is such a great outfit for a day of errands or just a relaxed day around town. It's comfortable, warm and easy to move around in. I love how the hood is so big, it makes this look a bit more on the dressy side rather than just wearing a "hoodie". doesn't this evoke sin city feelings?
NEW YORK CITY THIS WEEKEND!!! perhaps I'll pack this awesome wrap hoodie :)

Ryan Montebleau Band

HII! I just got home from class, woo, its the weekend. I don't have class on fridays- best feeling ever! So I had a test today in art history and it went fantabulously- could not have gone better. one step closer to achieving my 4.0 this semester! :) After class I developed some more film for my photography class and made a contact sheet of my film (basically a sheet that shows a bunch of little images of the film that you shot) We'll see which ones make the cut to make into a bigger print.
I just got the last of my school textbooks in the mail and when I opened the mailbox I saw that my fellow neighbors made me a really nice birthday card that they all signed- that really meant a lot to me. I have to thank them for that but they're all still at school. anyway, not that I was having a bad day, but it definitely brightened my day that they spent the time to make a card for me. :)
I am Poughkeepsie bound tomorrow then hoping on a train into NYC to go see the Ryan Montebleau Concert as a bit of a belated birthday celebration, aw hell yeah. Ash and I have gone to their concert once before in New York City when I lived there, so it will be fun to be back. I am excited to figure out what I am going to bring to wear. ALthough I hate picking outfits to wear to concerts because its usually soo hot- meh, we'll see. I need to clean my room in a serious way tonight.
I wore this grey and white plaid shirt from american eagle today with two scarves, one of which is kind of tucked into the white belt that I am wearing around my waste. On the bottom I am wearing a pair of blue/purplish (im slightly colorblind) pants from forever 21. They have cute little zippers on the inside seam down by the hem that I unzip a little to go over my shoes. I really liked this outfit but not so much for a day at school. It's a better walking around outfit oppose to sitting in class all day outfit. The pants are super comfortable but all of the stuff going on around the top kind of just got annoying whilst taking notes, etc. So that's the SCOOP.
although I am blind as a bat, I am wearing contacts in this photo with a pair of clear glasses from 80's purple which is an online site that sells sunglasses- its AMAZING and i love it.

New York CIty?

First and foremost- this is not the outfit I plan to wear around new york city.
It snowed yesterday so it is still really cold and the ground is covered with snow. Sometimes I can lose motivation to put on an 'outfit' on days like today but I mustered up what energy that I had at 8 am this morning with the foresight of spending all day on campus until 8 pm. I wore a long sleeve forest green shirt that has the name of the band Guster on the front of it that I got at, oh what'd ya know, a thrift store. It's a good shirt for laid back, relaxed days. Over it I am wearing a hooded button down flannel that also has pockets on the sides which I love. It's a perfect way to stay warm while adding some flare to an outfit. On the bottom I am wearing a pair of black pants from forever 21 with a pair of high ski socks over them that you can see peeking through my nautical themed rainboots from target. these boots don't keep the feet too warm so the ski socks are pretty neccissitto. It was the perfect outfit to wear on such a long day, i wasn't itching to get out of it by the time I got home, so that says something!
Remember how I was deathly tired yesterday? Well I got home from school, took a "nap" around 430ish, woke up around 8ish then went back to bed at 930ish for the rest of the night....yeah, safe to say I was tired.
I have a long night of studying ahead of me as well as deciding if I will be joining ashley (www.ashleykretschmar.blogspot.com) on a trip into new york city to see the Ryan Montbleau band and stay with steph (www.prettyintelligent.com) in Brooklyn. What to do??

SNOWBOARDER mag

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I am an avid fan of the magazine SNOWBOARDER for many reasons like the amazing action shots of people hucking themselves off cliffs all caught in a photo. It's exciting and inspiring and always pumps me up to improve at snowboarding. My dream career would be to be a professional snowboarder although I am nowhere near every achieving that, which is unfortunate. I just enjoy snowboarding more than almost anything! Anyway, the other aspect of SNOWBOARDER that I love are the ads. They have wicked cool apparel items and accessories and they usually show them off in a pretty cool way. When I saw this photo that Jamie edited of me, my mind went immediately to SNOWBOARDER. I could totally picture this being an awesome accessories ad, or something along those lines(again, not because I am in it, but because of the look that has been created) It's very dark and edgy and gives off such a serious emotion. A cool aspect of the photo that does not show up that well on here is the coloring of my eyes. Each set of eyes is a different, bright color which totally contrasts the black, its awesome. Jamie is producing such versatile shots, its amazing. It is so fun to be apart of his learning experience and just see his work get better and better every time! He is putting so much time and effort into his work and it is showing some great results.
Tell me what you think!
I drove from Durham to school this morning at 5 am and I am wicked tired. I, no exaggeration, almost fell asleep in my art history class today. I kept nodding off, beat. Off to take a nap. When I wake up I have to go food shopping because all that my refrigerator contains is red bull, some grapes and an old avocado. This is going to be such a short week since I had yesterday off and I don't have classes on friday-great news.

Oh yeah, I'm in school arn't I.....

I was supposed to go snowboarding today but since I am the biggest procrastinator and have not started studying for my macro test that's tomorrow I opted not to go. Knowing myself as I do I knew that when I got home from snowboarding, pretty much the last thing that I would want to do would be to start studying- so instead I am still at home in Durham studying for my test instead of gliding down the massive east coast slopes. :( it's very unfortunate. Wow, I have been home in Durham since thursday night, I think I almost had the false impression that I was on vacation. I need to snap out of this. My goal is to get a 4.0 GPA in school this semester and if i plan to achieve that I need to get it together.
No outfit postings today considering I am still wearing my pajamas and when it comes to pajamas, i don't try to get creative, i simply throw on the most comfortable stuff lying around. Don't most people though? Not in movies they don't, that's for sure. They wake up wearing the cutest outfits with perfect make-up and hair, how unrealistic. [example, Cameron Diaz in the holiday. when she is in england and jude law wakes her up in the middle of the night, cutest outfit ever and she looks perfect.]

raw.talent.

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OK_ I am WAY too anxious to wait to post this photograph.I cannot quite put into words how groundbreaking I view my brothers photography. When Jamie revealed this photo to me, I....well, I always hate pictures of myself and for once I could not stop rambling on about the things that I loved about it [plus imagine seeing it in high resolution, so crisp] It is a bit difficult to talk about a photo that is of yourself without sounding super conceited but it is not even that I think that I make this photograph what it is, I like this picture because I think the angles, lighting, coloring, backdrop, darkness and basically just everything encapsulated are simply out of this world. I've always known my brother to succeed at anything he has tried (for example, making awesome surfboards with amazing artwork after simply watching A video on how to make a board] but his photography skills far surpass anything that he has ever done before. He remarkably captures emotion and seeing photos like this just make me want to see more. I love seeing people's growth and I have seen Jamie's photos get progressively better over a time period of a week, i cannot even imagine what will happen in a month. kudos to creativity. i love it, it's so inspiring.
In this photo I am wearing a grey sweater from Abercrombie&Fitch that is mostly open but has a single wooden clasp on the front for an enclosure. I love this sweater for a couple reasons, not only can you throw it on over so many tops, but with the short sleeve feature you can really throw some cool patterns and colors on underneath to spice up the grey. I also love how it has a hood! I am wearing a forest green sweatshirt underneath from a boutique called accentuate in Jackson, WY because I was leaning more on the comfort side of things. On the bottom I am wearing dark skinny jeans from forever21 that are the perfect jeans to pair with a bulky comfy top. The scarf that is wrapped around my head is from Old navy, cool pattern huh. Lastly my argyle socks were a gift. I love patterned socks!!

Valentines Day? no.

*Before anything, I must just say, I RARELY ever match but this outfit is very matchymatch.
You know that someone is your true friend when they spot this jacket at a thrift store and give it to you instead of keeping it for themselves. This beautifully florescent columbia jacket was a gift from my friend janie that I live with on Nantucket in the summer time. She is currently out west in Jackson Hole, Wyoming- evidentally their thrift stores are amazing. I will definitely be hittin' up some stores when I head out there in march. Janie is awesome and I love her and i can't talk about her without mentioning how cool she is. We talk on the phone everyday...one would probably think that we would run out of things to say but for some reason, it just doesn't happen. Granted we might be discussing something very ridiculous like how many mcnuggets jane should order from wendy's or spending 5 minutes being silent doing our own seperate things whilst on speaker phone [unsure if mary kientzy, the payer of the cell phone bill, would approve of that aspect], but, its the truth. it is amazing when you have friends that you can just talk endlessly with, no pressure. Plus she has the best dog ever, a little black lab princess name bailey that i absolutely adore.
NEway, I went around Durham today and took some more photos for my class and this jacket no doubt kept me warm as can be. Not to mention the best aspect of the jacket, its reversible- ohhhhhh yes. I ended my day by stopping at the Durham Market Place in hopes of finding something to make for dinner for one. Unfortunately the only thing I found was, myself amongst dozens of boys buying bouquets for their significant others. sweet. I left with nothing to make for dinner and a sad heart.
Anyway, I have to pack up all of my stuff tonight that seems to have multiplied by 10 since I got home on Thursday. I am going snowboarding tomorrow morning at WA WACHUSETTE then heading back to rhode island reality where I will be welcome by tests, projects and papers. However, until then, I am very thankful that there is such a holiday as Presidents Day where I don't have to attend class and I get to snowboard.

I got this purple hat at a thrift store called ODD in Portsmouth, NH. It is a wicked unique store that has some very cool items. I love how bright purple this hat is with the bright orange paw print on the front. It also has a little purple rope along where the brim meets the cap, cool stuff. I threw on this colorful winter scarf that's from Urban Outfitters. It's actually my second one of the exact scarf that I have purchased. I gave my first one to one of my friends who really liked the scarf, thinking that I, myself, could part and do without it, I was wrong. I had scarf withdrawals and immediately went to get another. The purple t-shirt that i'm wearing is from a little boutique on thayer st. in rhode island, wicked comfortable material! This outfit is perfect for taking photos in because i can easily move around while still being warm and colorful. So many people take color out of the winter wardrobe and I think that it is such a shame! The time we need color are in the dreary cold winter months! :)

Photo Shoot

Hola! So this fashion blogging is definitely very new to me but I am really starting to enjoy it. I want to learn more about it and improve and work hard to start something cool here. I know that i'm not inventing fashion blogs or photography blogs or even the idea of mixing photography and fashion but I think that my blog is heading in that sort of direction but maybe in a unique way. After seeing this photo that my brother Jamie took of me, I started thinking of ideas and new places and directions that I could take my blog. My brother is a photographer and he was awesome enough to offer his time and efforts into helping me. i got some outfits together yesterday and we had a photo shoot [i didnt know that i was going to be doing this so I had to work with what I brought home for the weekend] It was soo much fun and although I have never felt comfortable in front of a camera my brother gave me a lot of great direction and we did a lot of different experimenting of poses and such. He took about 250 shots and I am wicked excited to see all of them. I would love to experiment with doing cool things while showing off neat fashion. This photo has wicked neat aspects to it, my hair definitely being my favorite part because it is so whacky! I bet you wish you knew how we did that! haha. I got a brief look beyond this cool photo I have posted here and I think that there are some awesome photos to come so stay tuned. When I am at school and not at home I will have to forgo the luxury of getting professional shots taken but I will continue on. I will be posting the photos from the shoot in the near future! :) My brother is such a talented and creative photographer and he can really capture some great moments and I am so proud to be his sister. Check out www.jamiewade.com
I'm wearing a blue longsleeve shirt from Abercrombie&Fitch underneath a teal/bluish plaid button down that I found in the men's section of a thrift store in rhode island, such a score. I like to pair bright, colorful shirts underneath my button downs and roll up the sleeves so it's exposed, a cool way to spice up any button down!On the bottom I am wearing black skinny jeans from Forever 21. I love love loveee forever 21's pants and they are SO inexpensive.
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BIRTHDAY DINNER

I am about to go to dinner with my parents and my sister (sans the two older brothers) to a restaurant called Bonta. I believe it is in..Hampton. I turned 23 yesterday so this is a little celebratory dinner! :) I love being with my family, they are the most amazing people that roam this earth. I have a really great relationship with my family and I cherish that more than anything. I love spending time with them!
So after the doctors today, I went around my hometown (DURHAM) and took some photos, i am excited to see how they came out. Enroute I stopped at a little thrift store called "bindy's boutique" in downtown Durham,NH and grabbed this $1.00 blazer! I mean honestly, I recently was in a store that was selling a jacket JUST like this for 80 bucks.I will rep thrift stores till i die- they are AMAZING. I think people have a false idea that thrift stores only have junky, unwanted clothing but it is the complete opposite. Of course one must do a thorough sift through of the clothing but there are some serious hidden gems. Sometimes I will find some items that may have to be altered but those are generally pretty simple alterations. Anyway, I paired it with this belt that I bought there for $2.00- even though it does have a button on it its a little big so I made it more secure by wrapping the belt around it. Underneath I am wearing the most comfortable long sleeve blue shirt from forever 21, i wear it a lot because comfort is key in my life. I spend most of my days walking to and from class and all that fun college jazz so comfort is a must! I am wearing a pair of stretch skinny jeans for forever 21 that are also SO comfortable and cute. I got my riding-esque boots at macy's (white mountain) and they are a staple item- they go great with so many outfits (when im in the mood to be a bit dressy...well dressy for me) This outfit has a bit of an equestrian feel actually... haha [my aunt kathleen would approve!] Oh i can't forget my scarf, if you can believe it its from....walmart. I bought it for my Where's Waldo halloween costume (and put white tape for the stripes) but then I realized it was actually pretty cute so unraveled the white tape and ta-da! Off to DINNER!

Doctors [not mcgullicuddys]

I had to go to the doctors office this morning. Not just any doctor, a sleep doctor. For over a year now I have had extreme sleepiness and i had no idea why. I finally realized that this was a problem and really affecting my life so i seeked out a professional. My primary care physician sent me to a sleep doctor who ordered some tests to be done. I went to the hospital and got hooked up to over 40 wires and they monitored my sleep. When I woke up the next morning I had to take 5 naps in 2 hour intervals- BORINGGG.Not to mention its pretty impossible to get a good nights sleep with wires attached to your body and tubes going all over the place, even for me. So Today I revisited my sleep doctor to discuss the results of my sleepover slumber party at the hospital. Results point towards Narcolepsy but not exactly. Wow....really? Yeah. Normally you are diagnosed with narcolepsy if you fall into REM(rapid eye movement) sleep in 3 or more of your daytime naps- i fell into REM sleep in two of my naps. Normal people do not fall into REM sleep at all during naps. Point is, I was 1 nap away from narcolepsy so I am not official considered narcoleptic. However, he diagnosed me with something called Idiopathic Hypersomnia in which I was prescribed a medicine called Provigil, which is essentially a stimulant that i supposed to help me stay alert and awake during the day. So we shall see. Andd...I have to take this medicine for the rest of my life- wow. It's too bad that I can't do anything to prevent having idiopathic hypersomnia. ekk.
So I wore this flashy bright outfit to the doctors office to make me feel happy in the event that there was bad news. I love plaid print!
(Jacket-Thrift store. Blue plaid button down-Thrift store. Purple long sleeve-Pacific Sunwear. Pants-Forever21)

The DAY has come

So 23 has come, it is my birthday, although, it really does not feel like my birthday at all. I suppose it never does. It will hit me when I am sitting in a class of 300 people and my teacher asks how old I am- HoW EmBaRrEsSiNg!!! All the 20 year olds will turn, stare and laugh and think to themselves 'adult student'----nightmare. I'm not looking forward to my ID getting checked with the dialogue to follow "woahoh, 23 today, you're getting up there"
I think my birthday will forever be cursed, because something devastating occurred today, February 11, 2010. The amazing, creative and unique designer Alexander McQueen was found dead today- he committed suicide. :( RIP Alexander. I have always been so inspired by alexander mcqueen and it is so tragic that he had to leave our world this way.

Fashion Blogger

*note: please excuse this terribly lit and executed photograph-
I (semi) recently got into following fashion blogs and I have become obsessed. I've remained a fashion design major throughout all four of the schools that I have attended so I am very interested in these blogs. I first started following What I wore, which is not my style at all but I am obsessed with it! The girl who writes it is so cute and the outfits that she compiles are amazing, i must say.(I've been on a serious hunt for those brown frye boots in my size, it is impossible!!!) What's awesome about these fashion bloggers is that they aren't selfish and looking for all of the attention to be on their own blog, they turn their followers onto other fashion bloggers, which is great.KU-DOS! Through What I wore I have been following selective potential, blonde bedhead and second skin. They all have SUCH different styles, but all unique and great. I probably relate most to selective potential and blonde bedhead but like i said, they all bring something to the table for me. I would love to start a fashion blog but I don't know much about it or how to start one- perhaps this blog could turn into a fashion blog, that would be saweeet. However, I am not sure that I have enough clothes to put together an outfit everyday like they do. I have a lot of clothes, but i don't wear half of them. Perhaps this could be a chance for me to break out some of the clothes from my closet and invent outfits so that I get more use out of all of my clothes. Hmm.. I think that I might be onto something. The only problem is, I think I would be a little awkward in front of a camera- and who would I have take pictures of my outfits? There would be a lot to figure out but I think that I should really try this. It is something that I enjoy engaging myself in on a daily basis so why not try doing it myself... Is this copying? My outfits will definitely be different from all of the blogs that I follow, so I don't think its copying.
This could be the start of another hobby! Ever since I started taking my photography class and realized it was such a great hobby to have because no matter where i lived or moved to, i could continue to take photographs and learn more about the skill- I have been sort of on the 'lookout' to find more cool hobbys that are not geographically-based (like snowboarding..), since I tend to move around quite a bit. So Perhaps I will have to change my blog title from its current name "Juicey Thoughts" to.... shoot, it might look like I am trying to copy juicey couture.... I got the nickname Juicey from my lovely sister kimberly who has been calling me Juicey ever since i stepped foot outside the womb-graphic. I am going to have to work on a new name I think. I am going to start brainstorming now. xo for now
I am revisiting my earlier post- have some started ideas for a name for my fashion blog-- I've tried incorporating my name into some of them- meh i dunno....just for a start-Here are some of them:

FabbieRICATE.YOURSELF. hmm or fABBIEricate-yourself.
Abbi-E-xpression
Abbi.E.centric
Juicey Thoughts & Trends
Fabricat.E.ibbA

(pants-Forever 21. White tanktop- H&M.Purple shirt-Thayer street,RI. Red Flannel-Macys. Scarf-walmart. black jacket- forever 21. grey swweater- forever 21. necklace-forever 21.)

Snow Day

SNOWDAYYYY.I got all ready for school at 6 am then realized classes had been canceled, i should have figured the day would have a weird tone to it. sooo excited, school is canceled (i feel like a child) but i just got up and showered prior to which did a number on waking me up. luckily i was able to fall back asleep.
Numbero Uno of business- my parents are sending me to jackson hole for my birthday for spring break to visit janie and bailey and ski the slopes of jackson and i am SEEEEIIIKKEDDDD!!! i cannot wait! i am ecstatic- :) Numero dos of business- im going home tomorrow for the long weekend :)

Birthday

I am turning 23 in two days and I am far from excited about this. 23, no. Most people that know me, know of my fear of aging. Although each year that I got older I was never happy about it, I think 23 is really hitting me hard. Turning 18 was great, i could buy all of those cigs i smoke, just kidding i dont smoke- but 18 is a milestone. You're an "adult"- 19 was just bleh, but hey I was still a teen so it didn't phase me all that much. Turning 20, I was not a teenager anymore which gave me bittersweet feelings. 20 felt old but still young, kind of a perfect age actually. Then there was 21 where of course it was fun to be able to legally go to bars, but sometimes i wish i never turned 21, life was simpler and more innocent before being 21. 22 was a year older than 21 and it wasn't too dreadful turning 22 because you weren't the "21 year old". However, 23... So undesirable and am realizing there is nothing cool about turning 23. Especially not when you are still in college and don't see a graduation in your future into next fall. ugh, i feel so old. I don't think I will celebrate this birthday.

Photography

I'm taking a photography class this semester and I am already obsessed with it. Photography is such a fun/great hobby to pick up because it is something that you can continue to do throughout your life and atleast for me, it brings me a lot of enjoyment. Especially seeing the end result (we are developing our photos in the dark room for class which is even better!) I am in deep amazement and have a newfound respect for photographers- it is not an easy task to capture a great picture. After learning about aperture's and shutter speeds and all that goes into making a picture what it is (i'm using a manual SLR nikon, FM-10- yes folks, film is back for me) I can't help but be so amazed by good photos. My brother Jamie is a photographer and although I always new his photos were great- i know now how much work and effort he puts into those great shots that he gets out. KU-DOS photographers! Anyway, I am very excited for this class to continue on and to learn so much more about photography and taking pictures and will carry this awesome hobby with me forevahh!

EUROPE

When I was much younger than I am now (reaching 23, ekk) my sister sent me a letter while she was in England and ever since then I always thought to myself I am definitely going abroad when I am in college. However, here I am in my senior year of college and sad to say that I did not go abroad. Not to make excuses for myself but I transferred colleges 3 times so there really has not been a time that I could have gone abroad. It's very upsetting! SO me and Ashley were talking about maybe moving to England after we (and by we I mean me) graduate. Ashley has been to England and she had the best time ever and absolutely loved it! So we are going to make a plan and hopefully it will be well executed and we will be living and working in England next year. We just have to figure out all of the logisitcs like visa's, living situation, all of that neat fun stuff attached to moving to unfamiliar places. I also considered moving to Colorado after I graduate next fall to live in the mountain area and be a snowboard bum for a winter- so i am very torn between these two plans. OR I could be a normal responsible human being and get a career- buttttt, no.

Necessito

The first entry in any sort of journal type format is always very nerveracking to me. It's a lot of pressure--knowing what to start with. Unfortunately many of my past journals never seem to fill up and that upsets me because I love looking back and reading things that I have written at younger ages- not only is it downright hilarious but I think it is an important record of my life. I have a bad memory so having a journal to remember my experiences is life or death right now- well maybe not that serious but I want to remember what I was doing in 2010 [etc.] when I'm 50 years old. I am on my computer quite a bit, as much as I hate to admitt it, so I figure that I should be able to keep this going and updated (I find that taking the time to sit down and write out my thoughts in a journal needs its own date in my schedule) So here it is- my first blog/journal entry that has yet to contain the evidence that I existed in this world. This will a compilation of thoughts, experiences, pictures, future plans, etc. I am 22 years old [oh.my.god. 23 in FOUR days-how frightening] and I am currently attending the University of Rhode Island while living in Narragansett, RI. My life up to this point has had its ups and downs but definitely more ups then downs and my downs haven't been anything too detrimental.I've moved a fair amount- sixteen totales times in seven different states. Colorado holds an extremely special place in my heart, having spent two years of college there and forming many amazing friendships but best of all meeting my friend Grace. It was very difficult adjusting to the fact that I did not have this person that I shared every moment with, around anymore. It was discouraging leaving, thinking I would never find a friendship like that ever again. moving away and growing apart from someone is not an easy, nor enjoyable, task but unfortunately it is a part of life.It has been a HUGE part of my life actually- every time that I've moved I have left people that I love, so I suppose I should be pretty used to it at this point. Luckily it has not scarred me in the way of not getting in the way of becoming close with people because I have so many amazing friends all over the country now!
This entry is a bit scatter minded and broad. my stomach seems to be in knots right now and I cannot form complete thoughts. OK_ done with this blog post for now, I need more direction and focus in my entries.